[Ferran presses his lips together as his brow furrows, and even if there's a part of him that sees that Yona is right, the rest of him doesn't want to deal with those things at all, ever. Similarly, he can't imagine anyone else would want to, when they did finally learn what was hiding under the pleasant surface.
Even aside from that dread of being truly seen for what he is, he has an incredibly hard time depending on anyone. It's been enough of a struggle to rely on others for more physical things, and he still balks at the idea of sharing anything but the most obvious and relatable of emotional problems.
He won't outright dismiss the idea, because that would upset Yona and possibly lead to an argument he doesn't want. But he can't bring himself to seriously consider the concept, either. Instead, he diverts the conversation entirely, his typical tactic.]
Maybe it'll be fine if I just... get another bond again...
[He just has to stay in control. Would a third help too, he wonders? He'll have to consider it more later.]
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Date: 2021-05-18 04:24 am (UTC)Even aside from that dread of being truly seen for what he is, he has an incredibly hard time depending on anyone. It's been enough of a struggle to rely on others for more physical things, and he still balks at the idea of sharing anything but the most obvious and relatable of emotional problems.
He won't outright dismiss the idea, because that would upset Yona and possibly lead to an argument he doesn't want. But he can't bring himself to seriously consider the concept, either. Instead, he diverts the conversation entirely, his typical tactic.]
Maybe it'll be fine if I just... get another bond again...
[He just has to stay in control. Would a third help too, he wonders? He'll have to consider it more later.]